Castle de Monte Cristo

based on the fact that my enlgish blog has only reach a click-rate of 2 persons/day average. I decided 2 open a new chinese blog at the same time. hope people who don't like enlgish could have fun there.http://blog.sina.com.cn/qinshiyiba

'la fin' was never my favourate words( la fin= the end, french). however, the only endless thing in the world is ending, and that's a fact that we can't denie. exactly the same as the only thing that will not change is changing itself. suddenly, california hotel can be a good experience, you can check out anytime you like, but you can never leave. it reminds me a subtitle in a movie " gods envy us, because we will die, everything in the world can be different and beautiful." it is true that without this apart we could never realized how deep we care for each other, how much happiness we've had, how many songs we've sang, how many games we used to play together.

when facing the empty room and the mess on the ground, i realized that it is really the end. I could never come back, I could never be here with my friends, the room we used to sing and sleep in. the time we've had. images r fulfilling my head these days, i recalled the days we were about to leave. I remembered the dinner at Liu Qidi and Xuanwei's home. I remembered the day that we went to happy valley. and of course every single pictures keep driving me think, think of the days we used to have. and now everything is different, every single moment r so important and cherity to me.

I used to call this blog passing time, and now, i find out that i was rite. and time have past. i miss my old days when tears fall.

It has been a long time since last time i wrote something here. a little depressed, when can i be the one i want to be, where can i find my way and my path? it seems to be such a long way...step by step, i do what i think it's rite, no matter i like it or not. y the results r not as i thought? there are choice which once made can be never changed.............choice, path, and my future. by the way, about 2 leave college, hope my friends contact me, let have some last fun.

it has confused me for a long time. even till this moment, i have no idea whether it is rite or wrong. by all means, fortunately, i realized that it may not should be judged by simply rite and wrong. During these days, what confused me the most is that i will gain more or lose more if i choose this way, and suddenly i realized that this is not how a person who wants to do something huge thought. Suddenly I thought of Lei Luo, one of the greatest detectives in Hongkong history. In those days, hongkong police system was really depravity, although we cannot say that he is a good person, but without any doubts, he is a person who achieved amazing things. he is that kind of people with the amazing ability to underestimate every huge thing that would make any other confused. He may consider a lot, maybe more than others, but he will not afraid to bet. he will bet all he had to win. every single huge decision would no longer huge in his mind, he could still spend time peaceful with his family. I admit this is what i cannot do rite now, but it's one of the most necessary ability i have to have in the future. consider but not confuse. the power to obtain any change in life. this may need time to let me grow up, but it also need to be realized and practise now.

thought i would be happy, unfortunatly, all the happiness last just a moment, a really short moment which i have not tasted well. after a exite moment, i fell in to worry, lots of worry, kind of lost. I started to rethink if the choice was rite? if everything r what i expected? everything seems so hard and uncertain.